Zulu Padilla
Warblers

I wanted to be a famous island- buying Hollywood actor, a hip punk controversial top list man of Rolling Stone Magazine , a California dream surfer lover with all the blond skinny girls and handsome guys around me, a drunk Brooklyn bisexual poet into Wall Street riots, a forever young overdosed teenager contemplating the ocean in a penthouse on Cartagena bay. Those were my MTV 90’s fuck off brain frustrations full of expectations and dissatisfaction. Now my frustrations are more diverse and abstract. I still haven`t found what Im looking for but how Lorca said in Living Sky “I won’t complain if I don’t find what I was looking for, But I’ll go to the first landscape of dampness and pulse to understand what I seek must have a target of joy as I fly in the midst of love and sand”. Lets talk about money at the end but now an overview of the status quo of my deep back-story. I have no doubt that my anxieties will ever disappear until all beings of this entire universe become free light and I’m very optimistic about that. Meanwhile the plan seems to be to understand acceptance and patience. It’s ok if I don’t want to wash my hands every time that I go to the bathroom or if I can’t always figure out the difference between push and pull on every door or if sometimes I think nobody looks at others more than me in the subway. It seems that the only thing that it missing in my life is all that I have, TIME. Everyday I am engrossed in a new top list of something: 1001 movies you must see before you die, weird, weirder and weirdest documentaries, Top 10 Bizarre Belief Systems, 111 indie folk albums you must listen, 69 Italian classic porn movies for this summer, top 10 demons that may visit you at home. I say to myself calm down, you don’t have to know all the swagged-out trends in the overwhelming web and also have time for pechiche, making art, visiting friends, calling the family, sun gazing, reading all the books around the apartment , jui jitsu , cutting my nails, cleaning the bathroom and reading the art section in the New York Times.
 
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